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Thursday, September 4, 2008

confused and depressed.

i'm not really sure now if ateneo is for me.
i wanted accounting before as a course, at la salle. but when i found out i got accepted at management engineering, i didn't hesitate to grab the chance. but now i don't know anymore if this was the right choice.

first of all, im very proud of my batchmates who are dean's listers in their first term at dlsu . GC kasi ako, kaya syempre gusto ko rin mag dl. but it's too difficult for me to be one. don't get me wrong, i love ateneo. hindi lang talaga ako nageexcel and i hate the feeling. siguro kasi nasanay ako na parating honor sa high school tapos ngayon average student lang.

now one of my blockmates is "angry" at me. and im not even sure why! i said sorry. extrovert kasi siya, makwento, so i just kept quiet the whole time i was with them. i didn't know what to do kasi siya yung parating nagsasalita and hindi niya ko sinasama sa usapan. it hurts me, of course, because i have considered him as a friend already. sila na lang nga yung kasa-kasama ko tapos ganyan pa mangyayari. i really don't know what to do: either pester him with apologies or give him time to think and maybe he'll just forgive me.

i don't know if i have made the right decision to enroll at ateneo. siguro pag la salle ako, kasama ko si annica and i would probably be a dean's lister, which would be a better choice than feeling this way right now because someone is mad at you.

i keep on telling myself, kaya mo yan, if they can do it, then so can you. but as all encouragements go, it's easier to say it than really do it.

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