Monday, January 29, 2007
"weakness will never hinder you in achieving anything." this was a line i read from a book, i forgot the title though. fears are commonly our weaknesses. it's our weaknesses that cause insecurities, comparing yourself to someone. they say that bravery is when you let your fears out and challenge yourself.. but still, many people, including me, hide their vulnerability, the fragile-this-side-up-box in every one of us.
vulnerability is the weakness of the spirit. i, for instance, have weaknesses that people apparently do not see. this true identity i have is difficult to hide beneath those piercing eyes. "one look, one word",a motto of those judgemental creatures. i continue my mission in hiding my true self up until now in fear of those who will know what i secretly hide.
seeking the perfect way or person to confide these thoughts and feelings is completely confusing. once i thought i found the person to talk to with these burdens too heavy. but somehow she let me down. from that day on i realize i wasn't wrong about those eyes that stab you inside making you regret big decisions you made.
wearing that sacred mask seems to be the only way to hinder that vulnerability in me from the crowd. but still i wait patiently. i wait for the person i can freely pour this fragile feeling ut of me. i also wish that someday i can also experience that natural feeling: the feeling not hiding anything from somebody, the feeling of wholeness i envy others feel.
---> i know, i know, it's lame and too dramatic. but what can i do? i was desperate at that time. and besides, i got 85 so its forgivable, right?
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Dianne. 19. Philippine-raised Chinese. Dog lover. TV series and movie addict. Bookworm. Most of all, God-fearing.
